My Expectations

Damien escaped to France, he left us alone in Kiev and he set us a task to write why we want to travel around the world…

When I was a kid I wanted to discover unknown plants, after I wanted to be archeologyst to discover very old and very interesting findings, after I wanted to become a doctor to discover the illnesses of the people and at the end I became an accountant. Eh, like that I also discover from time to time new thing in the Balance sheets and the reports but I am wondering who needs that. I think that with this trip Around the world I will have time to travel inside me and to discover the girl who wanted to discover different things. I will have time to think about nothing and like that I will become wiser because I will notice everything. Like a very famous friend of mine was telling (he has read it in some wise book and now he pretends it’s his own thought) – ‘One man was having a walk in the park and another – in his mind’. Perhaps I will even manage to discover the secret of the kids: to live today and not yesterday, and not tomorrow. This certainly will make me so transparent that it will be possible to see all the world thorugh me, the whole world.

When I was a small girl I was afraid from the deep of the sea and I was always going deeper and deeper in order to stop to be afraid. I did not manage to stop to be afraid – I continued to be scared but I also continued to go deeper. Until I grown up. Then I stopped to try. Or at least not with the same eagerness. I want to stop to be afraid: from tomorrow, from the dark, from people, from ill cats and dogs, from the global warming, from war, from illness, from difficult tasks, from death, from life. Awfully much time is lost in fear and I am 35 and a half already.

I always hoped that if nothing helps, some tibetian monk will teach me how to become wiser. But now I think that I will learn that from my kids – Mira and Sashko, from the bikes, from Damien, the tent, the dusty road, some kid from Madagascar, a new flavour of a new fruit, an old bus crapping slowly on a very long road, from some half blind grand mother sitting under the sun in front of her shaby, half ruined house, from something which I managed to plant and to grow, the flavour of the pain from the absense of my friends around me and the happiness that I have them. I will have the whole time in the world to watch the world around me. 

Nina.

Comments

[John]

Dear Nina & Damien!

If this is a blog, well than I am blogging for the first time in my life. My message to Nina & Damien's friends will first of all be, do not rely on the telephone numbers, I have tried for the last 10 days, either they are too busy packing, or to busy saying goodbye, or to busy drinking the last glasses of bulgarian redwine, or drinking Frozen Margueritas, or a combination of all these options.
As I do not get any reply, and I am sick and tired of trying now, I wish the small family all the best, from the very bottom of my heart! Enjoy every minute on your trip, and remember, although there might be clouds on the sky, in all meanings, the sun is always shining above the clouds!
Bon voyage from John!